cranky and crabby

Don't know if it's the cold or the vanishing economy but I've been feeling pretty bleak and frustrated and am trying not to let that reflect on my food choices, because its just so easy to eat the day away with little food "rewards".

yesterday Lunch; Failed attempt at whole wheat tortellini with cauliflower, I was craving mac & cheese and I thought that would squelch it, but I was not paying attention, again, and I poured way way too much salt in the pasta water..so when i used that to make it all creamy and good without butter it was mouth stingingly foul. SO I pouted. 

Whilst making lunch I was also baking a cake for a Bday party on Saturday, which I am forecasting will prove to be diet doom, I doubt there will be one item without a super high fat content and lots and lots of alcohol. but I will make a sincere and hopeful total effort not to mainline potato chips and to have very small portions of whatever is healthiest at the potluck for a man who abhors vegetables. 

after a half hour of pouting and cake making (I did eat a few small pieces that fell off ..maybe like what would amount to 1/3 of a cupcake..it was pretty good too Spicy Dark Chocolate cake)

Anyway as I said I was pouting and didn't feel like making anything and just wanted baby typr food..soft, so I had a hardboiled egg on whole wheat bread.

Dinner...my mood is still foul and wanted to make something x would like since last nights dinner was a bit off.. I generally have a hard time cooking well when I am distracted.

Sticking with original plan to not randomly buy thuings but use what i had, I had portioned out the chopped meat I bought and had two burgers in the freezer, made from 1/3 of a lb..one was a bit larger than the other (which went to X)

So : Big salad..mesclun greens, yellow peppers, cucumbers (I have to say the smell of the cucumbers gave me a little lift...so fresh and clean) radishes with balsamic vin, lemon juice & bit of olive oil.

Oven fries: Split 1 large potato btw us, cut in to fries..sprayed with Pam and baked on a rack at 400 for 20 min...they get all brown and look like fries...they taste pretty good too, sometimes I cover them in chopped garlic and smoked paprika then they are awesome.

Burgers: i took the smaller one, and covered them in red onion braised in red wine with a spoon ( a regular eating teaspoon, not the measruing kind) of crumbled gorgonzola cheese

w/ ketchup on a potato roll.

In the past I would have toasted the rolls with Butter and put mayo and ketchup on my burger but I did not, also would have made much larger burgers and a potato each. ya me and teh portion control!

had two glasses of wine.

I think I need to drink more water and obvioulsy move around more, I wish my damn latin cardio dvd would get here!

So far today have had coffee..and have the diet daunting task today of making icing for my cake, but whew! just sold a nice size job so I should calm down a bit about $$..what to have for breakfast? I want savory ..wonder what to do that does not involve eggs since I used them all up in the cake..AM going to start with pink grapefruit and go from there.

By the way Mary.. I love the left over fish/rice with a fried egg. YUMMMM!